drainedI just feel very tired, right now. Of course, the lack of sleep might have something to do with that. I have a headache that's had me popping aspirin, no real surprise.
I am not going up north for the memorial for various reasons. I have other obligations, is one. Plus that was going to be a weekend where a few of us toasted Lia's memory, trying to get some closure we didn't get from the funeral (Ah ironies.) And I think it would be Very Bad for me, right now. Jana would tell me not to do this. It's not like she's there waiting for me, and I can support her family in their loss in other ways. And be able to do more later. There is nothing for me in Tacoma except more draining of my fragile resources. I'm already working on a local memorial, and that's theraputic. I will get through this, but I need to pay attention to my own needs as well as others...
