But it's unsettling. It's rather like how, when I'm really stressed out, my writing at work gets done without conciousness on my part. I've gone into my books and found a chapter that I intended to start was already half written. Which, considering that I'm very dissociative, isn't that surprising. Writing uses altered conciousness. And when I'm really into creating something, I just go away in my head and visualize it, sort of a controlled hallucination, like when you're really deeply involved in reading a story, and somehow a written version of it appears.
I wonder if what I do is related to hypergraphia, the compulsive urge to write.--write anything. If maybe it gets to a point where I can't not write, and I do it in my sleep. I've been known to both sleepwalk and carry on intelligent conversations in my sleep, so it's possible. And writing is my escape valve, how I process other stesses and strains in my life. So, some part takes hypnotic control, and the words appear.
But it's like I've always claimed: I don't really write my stuff; I channel someone who does.