At least this isn't any of those places. Not by a long shot. Not even close. It's just the times we live in. And the R&D and QA people are working just as long and hard as I am.
Maybe it's I'm getting older. I HATE getting older. I'm starting to realize that maybe tech is a young person's field. Except that not many younger folks are going into tech, nowadays. (Maybe the word is out...) It's never been an easy ride, but I've always contended that tech suits my personality, which "Needs a thousand stresses/The grinding of gears./Without them, I would rust" as I said in a poem, long ago.
What's keeping me going is the preapproved vacation. I'm like a prisoner scratching off days until parole. It was approved in January, and everything is booked and paid for. (Not like I haven't been planning this with my brother and sister-in-law for almost 3 years, either.) I am GONE as of Tuesday. People are already panicking. I think they'd try to cancel it if they could. (I know people have tried to talk me into shaving a few days off of it, and coming in for work.) But it's what's going to save my sanity. Who knows, I might even have some stamina and spare functioning brain cells, by the time I get back.
Though, because this is ME, my vacation is already showing signs of being overbooked, with not that much time for myself. I've already done some double-scheduling, trying to see people I've obligated myself to see, including 300-mile day-trips. Maybe next year, I'll go away and play hermit, and not overbook myself. I'm trying to remind myself that substituting one kind of stress for another is not what vacation is about.
Good thing I'm not "retired." I might drive myself straight into the looney bin, trying to do *everything* with all that "free time." (I know myself too well.)